Sometimes, it's ok to cry, rite? Just to feel better. Some women, (including me)..are over sensitive towards certain issues in life. And being me, if i think it is no importance to argue about it, i would rather cry instead of making other people feel 'hmm..it's just a small matter..why need to take it seriously'..maybe..small matter to other people but it has touched my lil heart. Ok. No prob. Nobody is perfect. I am not perfect either. So, let me cry myself out. That will be the way how I make myself feel better. Do I trouble anybody by doing that, no aite? So, yup. That will be the best solution.
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Friday, April 13, 2012
Hardship makes your life more meaningful
Sometimes, my job fulls with interviewing new lecturers. For example, i have interviewed almost 10 lecturers for this new semester (March 2012). I still remember when I was first time been assigned as the program coordinator for English, i was clueless about my job scope. In fact, my previous boss did not give me a clear description on my KPI. I took the challenge at that time because firstly, i love to challenge myself and secondly I knew at that particular time I was the most suitable person for that position. 2 other colleagues at that time were too green and the other one was so problematic. I don't say that I am good enough but due to experience that I have and the trust given by my boss at that time, there was no reason why I should decline the offer.
And 2012 is my second year as the coordinator. From 3 lecturers with numbers of major issues at that time, now, my English team can always be proud with our works and products. Till now, we have recruited 15 English lecturers / tutors who are so dedicated with their works and most of them were being interviewed by me. In fact, we have won the 'best project' award from the company's Staff Excellence Award 2011. We received rm1000 and a certificate for our baby project 'GLISH Competition'. I am so lucky to have such a teamwork. Now, our boss and President of Academic have always put their trust on us. But of course, being human, there is always an issue, but I usually take it as norms in enhancing career. When my lecturers try to raise some issues regarding personal dissatisfaction towards other individuals, i usually advise them to confront and try to settle it without involving our big boss. I believe good communication is the best solution.
Anyway, I would like to share a story about one of the interview sessions that I had on last two weeks. I was having two candidates on that afternoon accompanied by one of our program managers, Kak Hana. My subject of interest would be the first interviewee. Before the interview, I was so impressed with her CV. She just graduated in MESL (master in ESL), with 3.89 cgpa from one of the IPTAs! I told kak Hana, "She must be very good. It's not easy to achieve that cgpa for MESL". Then, when she entered the room, I can see that she is very young, fresh grad. I asked her to proceed with a mock teaching without wasting time.
Surprisingly, she failed it. Her proficiency level was not good enough. I do not know whether she is nervous or what, but she ruined it. She seemed unprepared with her lesson. She taught grammar but I can see that she tried her best to memorize her points when it was just a simple present tense. To test her a lil bit, I interrupted her by asking a question about that tense. And again, she gave me the wrong answer. It also came to my surprise when she did her mock teaching, she did not use the white board or any visual aids! She just talked very closely towards Kak Hana and I, which I felt it was inappropriate. Then, for the interview session, I was so shocked and almost got a headache with her language. I do not claim myself being very good in this second language but believe me, i would rather say my non-TESL student could speak better that her. Her speech filled with fillers, grammar errors and sometimes, did not get the questions by us. I was so frustrated.
I was desperately in need for a good lecturer and looking at her cgpa, I had my big wonder. How did she present her papers, research during master's class? How did she nail in exams? How did she pass her papers? and of course, how did she manage to get that cgpa? I did have a look at her essay and still, her language is beyond average. I got to know that she comes from a wealthy family. I just hope...just really hope she didn't 'buy' her master's scroll. Because I've struggled so much for my master, almost 4 years...ups and down..crying, almost falling, to complete it. And with that proficiency, u managed to obtain 3.89? Please don't give me nonsense. And of course she did not success for the interview. To the girl, i do not know what u have been through before, but please do something. At least, make people believe that u are the owner of that master's scroll.
And 2012 is my second year as the coordinator. From 3 lecturers with numbers of major issues at that time, now, my English team can always be proud with our works and products. Till now, we have recruited 15 English lecturers / tutors who are so dedicated with their works and most of them were being interviewed by me. In fact, we have won the 'best project' award from the company's Staff Excellence Award 2011. We received rm1000 and a certificate for our baby project 'GLISH Competition'. I am so lucky to have such a teamwork. Now, our boss and President of Academic have always put their trust on us. But of course, being human, there is always an issue, but I usually take it as norms in enhancing career. When my lecturers try to raise some issues regarding personal dissatisfaction towards other individuals, i usually advise them to confront and try to settle it without involving our big boss. I believe good communication is the best solution.
Anyway, I would like to share a story about one of the interview sessions that I had on last two weeks. I was having two candidates on that afternoon accompanied by one of our program managers, Kak Hana. My subject of interest would be the first interviewee. Before the interview, I was so impressed with her CV. She just graduated in MESL (master in ESL), with 3.89 cgpa from one of the IPTAs! I told kak Hana, "She must be very good. It's not easy to achieve that cgpa for MESL". Then, when she entered the room, I can see that she is very young, fresh grad. I asked her to proceed with a mock teaching without wasting time.
Surprisingly, she failed it. Her proficiency level was not good enough. I do not know whether she is nervous or what, but she ruined it. She seemed unprepared with her lesson. She taught grammar but I can see that she tried her best to memorize her points when it was just a simple present tense. To test her a lil bit, I interrupted her by asking a question about that tense. And again, she gave me the wrong answer. It also came to my surprise when she did her mock teaching, she did not use the white board or any visual aids! She just talked very closely towards Kak Hana and I, which I felt it was inappropriate. Then, for the interview session, I was so shocked and almost got a headache with her language. I do not claim myself being very good in this second language but believe me, i would rather say my non-TESL student could speak better that her. Her speech filled with fillers, grammar errors and sometimes, did not get the questions by us. I was so frustrated.
I was desperately in need for a good lecturer and looking at her cgpa, I had my big wonder. How did she present her papers, research during master's class? How did she nail in exams? How did she pass her papers? and of course, how did she manage to get that cgpa? I did have a look at her essay and still, her language is beyond average. I got to know that she comes from a wealthy family. I just hope...just really hope she didn't 'buy' her master's scroll. Because I've struggled so much for my master, almost 4 years...ups and down..crying, almost falling, to complete it. And with that proficiency, u managed to obtain 3.89? Please don't give me nonsense. And of course she did not success for the interview. To the girl, i do not know what u have been through before, but please do something. At least, make people believe that u are the owner of that master's scroll.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Berangan Part II
I couldn't find my dream landscape..i mean green landscape..our house does not have a spacious spot to have something like in the pitcha but i, myself prefer a smaller one..a slightly simpler...
this bathroom will make me spending hours inside it..but i have to remember..i have a husband and kids to be handled!
since our house fills with a bartender before the dry kitchen, i like this idea, simple but nice
tell me..who wanna cook when your kitchen looks like this?
this one also has a bartender...and white + red is always right!
this one could be great for fahri's bedroom
i dont really fancy pink..so i think this would be nice for my lil girl (if i have any soon)
white with fresh flowers is always a great idea for a dining table
hmmm..white..pure white for me n hubby? hmmm...quite boring...i prefer some colours though...but this is nice alsoOk yana...stop! stop dreaming...but who knows..one day..insyaAllah...
Berangan Part 1
Lets daydream...hmmm..i would like to have a little space like this somewhere in the main living room...where most of daddies or mommies will have their chit-chatting session while enjoying their evening tea...well, for our house that currently we are leaving, i think i know where this space should be at...
actually, i fancy white pure clean and smart living room...but looking at this, i think it is so colorful and cheerful..hmm...feel like wanna read my best novel at this space...currently, we own a set of red+grey sofa, with red+sheer white curtains..i would say our house now is oriented by red + black + white + grey theme...
this one is too clean and white, aite? hmmm...boring i guesshaha..this is what happened when i completed my masters...i have a lot of time to daydream...and i love it...both hubby and I are soooo crazy about Interior Design. And our favorite mags rite now are of course Impiana, ID, Home Deco and etc. In fact, i did spend quite a number when I purchased my baucer buku last time buying ID mags! Hopefully, we could materialize our dreams sooner or later...and for now..mari berangan!
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Away
Hubby is away for outstation work..only for 2 days and one night..just at MODENAS, Gurun, Kedah...but still...i feel helpless a lil bit..starting to miss him already..haha...2 hari je pun..i'm gonna be ok!
The longest period that he went for outstation was last December, to Jakarta and Bandung, for one week..i know i would cry a river..so i asked my mom to come and stay for one week. Besides, i was having my terrible all-day sickness on that particular time.
I don't like him to be away. In fact, if possible, i would just love him to be at home and lepak with me and fahri, just inside our home sweet home. but, being wife, we shouldn't control or set limitation to our husband. They need freedom as much as we do. Even though we are already married, but sometimes we just need time with our own bffs or doing things that we like (which might not suitable for the spouse to join). That's why i don't mind if he wants to play paintball on the weekend or snooker once a week. But, being myself, i just don't have the interest to involve in those activities..i rather stay with my son at home, spring cleaning, online...that's it..if i really have to go for bff-girls-outing, then i will go...I guess that's how difference men and women devote themselves in marriage...
I have my hundred percent respect towards married couple who have to be apart or 'weekend husband and wife'. I can't imagine if i have to go through that kind of marriage. Who knows, only Allah s.w.t. knows....
hmm..hope that my hubby will settle his job well and come back quick!
The longest period that he went for outstation was last December, to Jakarta and Bandung, for one week..i know i would cry a river..so i asked my mom to come and stay for one week. Besides, i was having my terrible all-day sickness on that particular time.
I don't like him to be away. In fact, if possible, i would just love him to be at home and lepak with me and fahri, just inside our home sweet home. but, being wife, we shouldn't control or set limitation to our husband. They need freedom as much as we do. Even though we are already married, but sometimes we just need time with our own bffs or doing things that we like (which might not suitable for the spouse to join). That's why i don't mind if he wants to play paintball on the weekend or snooker once a week. But, being myself, i just don't have the interest to involve in those activities..i rather stay with my son at home, spring cleaning, online...that's it..if i really have to go for bff-girls-outing, then i will go...I guess that's how difference men and women devote themselves in marriage...
I have my hundred percent respect towards married couple who have to be apart or 'weekend husband and wife'. I can't imagine if i have to go through that kind of marriage. Who knows, only Allah s.w.t. knows....
hmm..hope that my hubby will settle his job well and come back quick!
Friday, March 23, 2012
Alhamdulillah...i did it!
Alhamdulillah..finally..i managed to complete my thesis. 21st of March 2012 was the date of my hard covers submission...it is a relief..syukran...now..i am waiting for the Senate Letter before i can decide further on my career enhancement...and InsyaAllah..of course October is the month that i've been waiting like...for ages! My EDD for this second baby is 15/8/2012...oh i really hope i can make it for the big day! InsyaAllah..I am grateful after the submission because i did achieve my target to get my master's degree before reaching 30...but still...i guess i need to challenge myself more...by planning for PHD degree...will blog about "why i think i need to do my PHD" sooner...but of course..i want to treat myself first before pursuing to the next level...i want to have more focus to my family, work and myself. i really need that before doing anything else...
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Fahri at 1.6 yrs old
Name: Ashman Fahri bin Saipul NizamD.O.B: 30th September 2010
P.O.B: Hospital Umra, Shah Alam
Age: 1 yr 6 mnths
Hobby: 'cleaning' things from wardrobe or kitchen cabinet and put them somewhere else till mama n papa need to do the 'selongkar' process all over again..
Favorite Song: Falling in Love- Siti Nurhaliza
Favorite TV Show: Money Drop & Raja Lawak
Favorite DVD show: Disney Magic English
Words uttered: 'Mama', 'papa', 'baby', 'sejukkkk', 'tepi', 'air', 'ti (roti)', 'bird', 'miaoww', 'si (nasi)', 'susu', 'nak'
I am so happy to see Fahri already could understand orders and instructions from us. For example, he will pick up things if he is being told so. Most of the times, he is independent and could spend time playing with his 'car' and 'bike'. I just need to monitor him while doing my work. It's a relief to have him being a lil bit more self-reliant as I am easily get tired nowadays...
I just cant wait to see his reaction on the first day he will be the big bro..insyaAllah....
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