Mother of two!

Naeem. the latest picture. yes, he is big! i don't like to compare my two kids. they have their own extra points. last check up when he was 2 and a half months, he weighed at 5.8 kg...Alhamdulillah

 Aariz Naeem at 2.5 months

Nyumm nyumm

He used to be super behaved but nowadays, he could get cranky especially when he wants cradle and hard to get sleep!

 My adorable kids. sometimes they are well behaved

but not all the time! =)

we will try our best to raise our two boys with lots of love, equally... (p/s: it is hard, man!)

 Fahri sometimes got jealous with naeem's stuffs

i believe naeem looks more like me than epul..so it's fair now, rite?

Hope to have more in 3 years time ;)

The fun of shopping is getting lesser as we need to focus more on the kids. but, it's ok..the kids themselves are fun!

My Master's Convocation

Alhamdulillah. Yes. This phrase has been uttered by me most of the times as I have so many things to thank for. Syukur. I could not hide my feeling that I am proud of myself as completing my masters was really a tough journey. But, with the help from my helpful supervisor, my understanding family and supportive husband, I manage to hold my master's degree now. I am so touched that all the lovely and important people in my life have made their presence on that day. Thank u very much mom, dad, sis, hubby and fahri. No words could describe how happy I am that all of you had came. happy and contented. 

4 years of completing my masters is not that easy. I extended 2 semesters when I was doing my thesis as I was pregnant and then, delivered my baby (Fahri). I was adapting with my new life at that time (as a newly wed and a mommy). I had huge responsibility at work. But, i guess determination is the key word. A better future is always my motivation. I want to give my best towards my husband, parents, kids and of course to my own self. It is also for the sake of professionalism. and of course knowledge. But i feel that i still don't have enough. that's where my plan for pursuing PHD came. InsyaAllah..one fine day. I have a lot of names in mind to thank to but among all, I would like to congratulate myself.

haha my sis took this picture...raja Nazrin passed the scroll to me! he is hadsome sangat!

happy me

 naeem is not in the picture as he is too small to be there

my BFF! Alhamdulillah...we managed to grad together! OMG! We are so meant to be together! congrats to u too, Sha!

My strength

with my best friends, sofina and sha

Fahri refused to be with me because maybe I look different with the convo attire

Thank u Mi for the support!

Arghhhhh! too much love here!

This is miracle.Alhamdulillah. Me with my bestfriend, sha with our hubbies (also bestfriend), together with our products

massive updates!

My English team

Holla! Assalamualaikum! fuhhh..it's been a while. I was so busy with my new phase of life (read: handling two boys)..that makes me have no time to blog. Ok..just wanna re-cap what has happened into my life since my last post. 

On work: I started my first day after maternity leave on last 3 weeks. Oh man..there were so many 'dramas' going on which unfortunately has made my heart broken into pieces :(. It's ok. I won't share it here..as it's not nice to do that. I felt unappreciated. Those people are so unprofessional. I just hope and pray i'll get a better place to work. Anyway, something that I could not miss when I think about my job is none other than my crazy beautiful colleagues..we are awesome! they are my panadols.  

 lunch at dominos

On fahri's 2nd birthday: Happy belated birthday my sayang! Well, we don't have that rezeki to throw a party for him as he was suspected to have HFM disease the day before his burthday. It was a very last minute called-off message that we have sent to our friends and relatives. I was so frustrated but we didn't want to take risk. If he really got infected by HFM, then we might expose it to other kids who would come. So, we have decided to postpone it. But then again, we found out that Fahri was actually not having any HFM symptoms except for he had ulcers inside his mouth...hmm..i don't know..maybe the paed was wrongly assumed. However, hubby and I still celebrated Fahri's birthday by inviting my MIL, SIL to our house. just a small one. And of course my mother was around. As long as he is happy. I love u Fahri.

Mini celebration for Fahri. It's ok, next year, we're gonna make it big!

The birthday cake that I have ordered. I did not cancel the order. It's a huge cake. 2kg! So, I brought half of it to office and gave it to my colleagues.

Hubby and I bought him a tricycle and he got an Ultraman from his Cik Lang!

On fitness: I managed to reduce weight. Now, I could see numbers such as 52 to 53 kg on my weight scaler. Of course I would be happier If i could get my 'anak dara' weight, 50 kg! haha...

Talking about fitness, my colleagues and I now are crazy about zumba! We had our zumba once and gonna make it as a routine every week! 

On EBM: Alhamdulillah, even though the stock is like 'cukup-cukup je"...but it is enough for Naeem so far. Usually, i would get around 15 to 20 ounces during office hours and direct BF at home. I have to be positive that Naeem will have enough stock.

My Spectra pump

My colorful cooler bag

My EBM per session

EBM

This is my EBM stock that I could express for usually one week.  I started my EBM stock on the second week of confinement, but it was not that consistent. And still, i couldn't find the standard time/ hour that I should express my EBM. However, usually I will start express at 2 pm every day. But, this morning I managed to get 5 ounces at as early as 7 am! I hope I will be more consistent after this. Oh yeah, I have another stock, stored in my neighbour's freezer because last week, my house was having this black-out hours. Luckily, I did not forget about my EBM stock, and asked my mom to keep it in my neighbour's freezer. If not, basi la semua stock tu...I hope I will always have the rezeki to bf Naeem until he reaches 2 years old... InsyaAllah...Oh yeah..this is my 40th day of confinement...Yippeeee!

Naeem is one month

Just wanna update:

1) Naeem has reached his first month on last 9th September. I went for his first month check up and jab on last Thusrday and he weighed at 4.6 kg. Alhamdulillah. Yes, he is growing healthily. May he keeps healthy and adorable. and no doubt, he makes my life so easy because he is just a fine baby!

2) My EBM stock? Hmm...Alhamdulillah. but still, the most I could get is 5 ounces each expressing session. I really hope I will have more rezeki after this. InsyaAllah...positive!

Goodboy mama

Every time I wanna blog about this, I will shed  tears. I am so proud of fahri. Just too happy and proud of him. Just imagine. He haven't raeched 2 yrs old yet, but I would say he is successfully adapting with his new surrounding at my parents' house. He has also shown his 'maturity' by accepting that he is a big brother now, not mama and papa's only sweetheart. He does not show any obvious sign of jealousy towards his brother. In fact, he loves his brother so much (so far hehe). I am so touched when every time I am about getting him ready to sleep ,(usually we're gonna have this pillow fight, chasing around, laughing out loud, biting around until he goes to sleep) and if he hears his brother cries out of sudden, he will stop playing with me and ask me to comfort Naeem. It's like "it's ok mama. U go to adik. I'll be fine. I'll try go to sleep by myself. Don't worry about me" (if he could talk, i guess that's what he will say). Isn't that adorable and sweet like honey? I have never imagined this. Syukran Ya Allah. Most of us have expected that Fahri will have hard times to accept his brother since he is still too young to understand him. But, we were wrong. We have downgraded him. 

I will also cry when I think of how he could accept the fact that now, he has to be far away from his papa, opah, atok and acu (when he has got used to them). It was really hard at first, especially for opah (my MIL)... she cried non-stop on the day fahri left them to follow us to Kuantan. Same goes to Acu  (my 12 years old SIL). Even until now, my husband said that Acu will cry each time she listens to the song 'Ombak Rindu' (she usually sings this song with fahri). Well, the first three days when papa left us at my parents' house (for confinement) were difficult. It was so hard to entertain fahri. Only the helpless me could entertain him. He didn't want my mom, sis or dad. Just imagine. I was just on my 10th day of confinement and I was still not fully recovered but I believe I have to be strong and sacrifice. I was the one who took him to shower, fed him, sleep with him..I was so tired because I need to entertain Naeem as well.Those days, I cried for few times. But, I could not let my MIL taking care of fahri. No. It is simply because I just can't sleep if he is not around (He has never been far away from me). Plus, I want fahri to learn the meaning of brotherhood. And I am very happy to say that now, he manages to help me especially when I ask him  to hand me his bro's pampers or baby wipes, etc. So, this is the sacrifice that Fahri did, even though he doesn't realize or understand about this, yet. But now, Alhamdulillah, there is always a blessing in disguise. Fahri just wanna berkepit with my mom, riding bike / goes shopping with my dad and play with my sis. Sometimes, he doesn't even bother if I am around! They are very close. I do not know how my last day here will be. I know my family especially my mom ( who now sleeps with fahri every night, feed him food, bath him and taking him for a walk on the evening) will be very sad. Fahri has brought happiness to them because he is so cute, funny, and entertaining. I know they gonna miss his voice, laugh, smile, cry and charms. Ya Allah...may all of us be strong. You are amazing, fahri. You make mama proud. Hmm..now my worry is... is it gonna be hard for him to re-bonding again with his opah, later when I complete my confinement days? Let's just wait..

Now Fahri, because u are too good to be true...mama and papa are planning for your birthday  party (but a small one) at the end of the month. We'll try to make u as the happiest kid in the world....hmm..Subhanallah..

Abg Fahri sayang adik Naeem

I'm glad that Fahri stays with me throughout this confinement days. I believe the best advantage will be his bonding with his lil brother. He loves Naeem so much. He can't stand Naeem's cries. He will try to do something or ask people around to comfort Naeem. He will go and kiss Naeem almost every seconds! But, he will say "takut takut" each time I tease him to hold his brother, because Naeem is botak.. haha..maybe he is scared with bald babies. Fahri... Fahri