kesayangan chapter 1

i'm done with chapter 1. phewwww! still have chapter 4 & 5...God, help me!

Kupu-Kupu

Ashman Fahri & Wali Amar Rifqi

Yesterday's evening, my cousin came to my crib..well, out of sudden ( he loves to do that )..but yesterday. he brought along his wife and kids. The above picture is fahri was sleeping beside rifqi. So, they are kupu-kupu la because fahri's mother and rifqi's father is sepupu hehe. Actually, Rifqi is only one day older than Fahri...so..u guyz can celebrate your birthday together okay! babies are just so cute when they are together..that's why twins are so dammnnn cute

kedegilan Chapter 1

napela susah sgt nk menyiapkan chapter 1 ni..when it supposes to be the easiest chapter huhu..i've sent my chapter 2 and 3..tp draft je la..it's ok..lps ni just edit2 je la..so x de idea nk wat chapter 1 ni..baru half way..i lost my words and thought...idea idea..cptla dtg..maybe i should do more reading..or maybe it is because this is the last day of my confinement...hehe

Cukur Jambul

I never like the term 'cukur jambul'. it sounds funny. Why not 'cukur rambut kat depan sikit'?..We had a 'cukur jambul' ceremony on last saturday. I am so happy that my family in law could make it to the majlis. And of course the papa! sangat lepas rindu hehe...during that day, we couldn't find any expertise to botakkan n shave fahri's head..so hubby and I have decided to postpone it when Fahri will turn 2 months. Maybe we will just simply go to any barber's shop and shave his hair clean cut! So, these are the pictures during the ceremony. I am so in love with my 2 heroes-papa and Fahri

me..hehe..

still need to reduce some kgs...

happy face from mama

ma n fahri

us..

fahri will become a good boy when he is in papa's arm

my soul

atok2 marhaban with my dad

my FIL n MIL

Papa suke manjakan Fahri..yelar jarang2 dpt jumpe

me with my luvly sis

my sis n my mom

me with my sis n sis in laws

my kesayangan.mwah!

p/s: to those who wish to further their study, please do it before u have kids! i'm telling u..i've never imagined it is so hard to do your thesis when your baby is wanting milk, crying all the way, wanting to be in your lap and arm all the time...and their cuteness will stop u from writing your chapters! Mind u!

Doa for my sis

This is my one and only sis, Mira. I love her very much. Very much. Sbb aku sayang die, how could i tell her that i want her to be a good daughter, good lady, good sis, good student and good muslimah of course.

Dear sis bucuk, (if only she can read this)..

kak na nak yah tahu..kak na syg sgt ngn yah. u r my only sis.
i wish i could tell u that please jangan tinggal solat. jangan lawan cakap our parents. kalau keluar rumah, tutupla aurat, jgn layan budak2 laki yg ntah pape tu. sbb yah cantik. ramai org suke. jagela diri.

i know i m not that good. n maybe i am not good enough to be her role model.. but, i want her to be a good gurl. zaman skrg risau betul tgk macam2 kes fasal masalah sosial remaja. i dont know whether she has good friends or not. whatever she does, i pray that she will not leave her solat, ingat our parents..jgn malukan diorg..ingtla Allah S.W.T..

I am so regret sbb ade juge terlalai n terleka mase zaman awal2 remaja dulu. And i don't want her to be like that. I want the best for u, sis...love u..

The experience

Fari....2nd day

I would like to share the moment, the experience that i have gone through, when I was delivering Fari on 30th September 2010.

So, i was supposedly give birth to Fari on 10.10.10. That was the due date if he reaches 40 weeks...but he was born one week earlier....

ok..on monday (27th Sept) i went to work as usual la. siap pg lunch kat ole2 seksyen 18 lg..we had lunch at Kopitiam Pak Li..with my best colleagues (Aida, Fina & Fifa)..pastu siap tengok2 shawl..beli shawl..mmg berjalan je lar kejer nye (org kata kalau banyak berjalan...senang n cepat beranak)..then, when we went back to our office, i went to the lo..rase nk pee...tp ternampak satu kesan mcm bleeding..but it was just very little of it..then i went back to my office n planned to re-check after that..so every half an hour after that about 3 times, i re-checked whether there is more blood, but no..it was only the first bleeding..and i told my colleagues bout that..and they were like "Yanaaaa..ko da nk beranak" "Pergi klinik cepaattttt" haha so funny la diorg ni..siap ade yg bergambar lg ngn my tummy takot i terberanak besok haha..

But, i didnt go to see my gynae straight afterward, i told hubby about that and he asked me to call the gynae. I tried to reach her but the nurse said that she had a case that she needed to handle during that time..and the nurse promised me to call me back..i waited for few hours but the gynae didnt call back yet..so i decided to go back first..my hubby fetched me and we went back to my MIL's house..then, i got a call from the nurse, she said the doctor asked me to come over to the clinic for a check-up..

Then, we went to UMRA at 8 pm..then, i met Dr. Sudha..she checked my 'opening'..she said.."Oooh dear..it's already 3 cm. it's gonna be this week"..i was like "What? 3 cm? are u serious Dr?"..then she replied.."Hey, u are questioning my profession" haha sambil kenyit mata..ye la..x caya la..sbb due lmby lg..so she gave me MC for three days. die x bagi pg kejer da.. i called my mom..pastu my mom said she wanted to come over to look after me..

So, bermulalah game 'penantian satu penyeksaan'..my colleague especially Fina..everyday was asking me "Yana...dah ke" hehe sabarr..so..tuesday n wednesday..just rest kat umah la..but..on tuesday..i was so tired n rase x larat sgt..tp sempat lg cakap kat my mom n hubby.."teringin nk makan ketam masak lemak cili api" so..hubby pn belila ketam on wednesay but i told my mom to cook it for thursday's lunch...sbb budget baby kuar on Friday la..pastu, on Thursday, lepas online around 9 am, rase cam healthy sgt tp rase nk baring2..tetibe rase ade macam ter'pee' plak..macam ade air kuar..dlm hati 'alamak..ni air ketuban ke?'..my hubby was sleeping beside me..i kejut die cakap "Pa..ma rase air ketuban mi da pecah la"..so my hubby n my mom pn gelabah la..tp yg kelakarnye..sumer tiga2 skali sempat lg mandi tu haha..x nak busuk la konon..so pg klinik..around 9.45 am sampai UMRA..

dr Sudha pn check my 'opening'..she said still 3 cm..tp die kate air tu mmg air ketuban..but belum pecah lg..just bocor..but she said i kene admit hari tu jugak n maybe akan bersalin around 5pm...hayyooh..mase ni mmg dup da dup dap la...takottt...so..i pn admitted la dlm wad at 10.45 mcm tu..diorg ambik heartbeat baby sumer..ade sorang practical nurse n one midwife..hubby n mom balik dulu sbb ingt ke lambat lg..kelakar..my mom siap nk balik sbb nk masakkan ketam tu haha..but i said da x sempat la..dr da x bagi makan da..

so..around 11.30, Dr. induce sbb nk kasi contraction..because i was not having any contraction eventhough bukaan da 3 cm. so start rase saket around 1 pm..mase tu hubby da ade kt sblh..mmg dok cengkam tgn die je la kejer nye every time datang contraction..mmg sakit ya amattt...rase x tahan sgt..mcm piriod pain yg melampau2...tp i've heard mase tu that midwife told my husband i maybe bersalin around 5 pm macam tu...5 pm ape...tetibe around 1 pm..rase nk buang air besar tp saket sangatttttt...then i jerit.."sakeetttt..rase nk poo poo" hehe..pastu sume org da gelabah..ye la..sbb x budget baby da nk kuar that early..dr pn masuk bilik..n said "Ok Yana..this is the time. u kene push ok"..mase tu i was blur..i didnt know yg rase saket sangat mcm nk buang air besar tu sbnrnye saket baby da nk kuar..tp da x boleh pk sbb contraction saket sangat...so i guess dalam push yg ke-5, barula baby keluar..last push tu sbnrnyer i push dgn penuh semangat sbb dr kate die nak vacuum.. so i macam takot giler smpai push dgn sangat kuat haha..Alhamdulillah..labour pain i x lame..around 1.59 pm..lahirla Fary..n thanks to hubby..teman push yg sgt hebat!

pastu..bile stitching process..ya Allah..lg sakit rupenyer..sbb Dr nk kuarkan darah2 beku kt dlm..smpai rase nk tendang Dr..tp Alhamdulilah..semuanya dipermudahkan. Oh ya..mase sakit contraction n nk push tu..sempatla baca Doa Nabi Yunus n selawat banyak2..mmg membantu..so..kalau nk ingt balik sakit beranak..mmgla rase cukupla sorang tapi lame2 da x ingt da..Syukur Alhamdulillah..

yeayyyy yahooo!

Kenal x minah ni. Name die Fatin Liyana. she's so cute kan..sbnrnye ramai je manusia yg cantik kat muke bumi ni..tapi sbb die ni cantik plus menutup aurat. I suke tgk gurls yg pakai tudung tp still nampak style...siap ade ribbon lg atas tudung minah ni. so cute. sorry to fatin liyana. i took this picture frm your blog sbb u cute sgt hehe

ok..enough of her...today i went for outing with my sis, mira n fari..sbb my mom sibok nk prepare for this saturday (buat majlis cukur jambul fahri), so tpaksela bawak fari skali. actually nk cari botol susu for fari sbb die x nak minum susu botol lngsung..da mcm2 puting tukar n try tp die x nk. die nk direct breastfeed jgk. susahla nk tgal umah MIL nnti lau die x nk botol..so hari ni aim la nk p cari botol susu yg tlah disuggestkan oleh member2 mcm First Years, Tommee Tippee n Mum..tp x de plak pg cr kat East Cost Mall td..so ths salesgurl pn suggest la puting brand Pigeon ni..da balik td..Alhamdulillah..Fari nk minum..hopefully die akan teros ok la ngn brand ni..