Sometimes, I felt that I neglected one of my big priorities and commitments this year, which are my job and my master. I am really afraid I’m being not sincere to both. It is like u have two husbands already, then u wanted to have another one because it promises u endless happiness compared to the other two, which u have to marry them because of personal needs (erkk??).
This is what I am feeling right now (sometimes). I can’t wait to step in to the new phase of my life soon (November-December)- getting married (because I want to have a family like everyone else and I want to be with him until my last breath). But, at the same time I felt like I am betraying the other two commitments especially my master’s program (hopefully not). This year is a challenging year. Plus, both of my master’s classes are very tough, indeed. Ya Allah, I need strength. I can’t make this alone. I’m taking risk by committed to three big things in my life, this year and two of them will end this December, InsyaAllah…
I must be crazy doing all of these but hey…people did and they managed to handle them all. I love working and studying at the same time. It’s great and fun! It is like killing two birds with one stone. You learn the theories in class and the next following days, u apply them in your own classroom! What a great learning process I tell ya! It just that, this semester’s subjects that I am taking, are really tough and acquire a lot of effort and times. And I just don’t have them both.
Only God knows how I am scared, could not sleep at night and felt down each time I did not perform my best for my other halves- job and master. But, I just can’t wait everything will turn out beautifully by the end of this year. I want my work being recognized, flying colors for my master’s CGPA as well as being Mrs Epul. InsyaAllah..pray for me friends!
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