Papa Fary....

Everyday i am missing this man. But, have to bare with it. After my confinement, we'll definitely be together again, mama, papa n fahri under one roof. Kadang2 rindu sampai nangis. But, it is harder and tougher time for him...at least..i have Fari here..but he is all alone at our house back in Klang. Luckily, MIL's house is just nearby..

Now, Fari and I could only see him once in a fortnight ... he could not come here every week...he got so many works to settle on and it doesn't take 10 minutes to reach here!

It's ok. Mama sabar. papa sabar. fari pun sabar keh...

Fari is one month!

Sempena Fari dah one-month-old (Alhamdulillah), this is a tribute post to my little hero. Mama n papa luv u so much Fary dear...muaackksss

Sayangnyer nenek ngn die...nenek la dok mandikan die tiap2 ari..tolong mama jage fary

Dah besar...da selalu nk senyum..kalau x..muke garang macam ketua polis =)

Fari sekejap tembam sekejap kurus balik...nnti mama kasi susu banyak2 lg keh

Macam2 gaya dah umor sebulan ni...

Favorite style Fari..moncong2..ikut sape ek..hehe

mata sebelah pn nk senyum

Gaya tido fav. Fari..mcm papa die

Ya Allah..thank U for this precious gift..sesungguhnye Kau Maha Agung lagi Maha Pengasih...

disiplin, mama!

ohhh..i must, compulsory to do these like there is no tomorrow!

1- sila patuh segala disiplin berpantang! --mandi air suam, jgn minum air yg sejuk or air yg x berapa nk suam, pakai barut/ bengkung 24 hours!, pakai socks
2- sebelum pakai bengkung...sapu minyak panas n amalkan petua2 utk kempiskan perut
3- sile jangan terlebih makan
4- jgn lupe minum susu
5- makan nasi- sikit je, makan nasi panas2..jgn ambil kuah bnyk sgt
6- sila buat thesis anda..now chapter 2--sabtu ni nk hantar draft chapter 2
7-jgn dok on9 jee..
8- bg breast feed sekerap yg mungkin to Fari
9 - sile check napkin/ pampers fari sekerap yg mungkin n tukar
10 - bahagikan masa dgn sbaiknyer--Fari, thesis, rehat

now tell me, sape kate berpantang tu banyak masa nk rehat...

BFFS

Ameen n Sha as our bridesmaids during our reception last year...

During Reception

Solemnization...congrats sayang!

pretty sha..

This post might be outdated but i would like to wish congratulation to my BFF--> Shahidah a.k.a Sha for her wedding on last 2nd of October 2010. I couldnt attend her beautiful akad nikah ceremony and reception because i just gave birth to my Fahri 2 days before...

Actually, i was quite frustrated when i got to know the dates of Sha's wedding because i afraid i will give birth somewhen closer to the date...because i was dying to go to the wedding....but sha said that is the best date that she could choose according to her availability. And i was right, i couldnt attend her wedding! My little angel arrived into this world 2 days before Aunty Sha's wedding. But, mr hubby did attend the wedding..

Of course my hubby and I (especially me) were looking forward to the wedding because both Sha and Ameen (her husband) were the one who indirectly 'menjodohkan' kami (my hubby and I).

Kalau ingat2 balik mmg kelakar la how we met and both of us- me n sha (bff) get married with Epul and ameen (bff jugak). I still remember, sha and I were having hard time, breaking up with our exxes..then one night on 2008, sha and I went to Hartamas to lepak2 n menenangkan fikiran..konon2 la..sambil2 cuci mata..suddenly my guyfriend, khairul called me and wanted to hang out with us that nite. Then, he came n we borak2 as usual..i introduced Sha to Khairul..pastu sha saje la tanye Khairul.. "Eh, kau ade x sape2 yg ko kenal yg boleh buat laki..tapi yg baik2 la" pastu khairul terus cakap "hmm..ade..die kejer tv3. name die ameen. aku bg number die keh"..mlm tu kitorg weng n giler sket sbb bosan..so sha selambe kate "ok.aku nak.tp takot la"..at that time actually si khairul ni tgh nk bg2 hint n usha kat aku..hehe..akhirnye melepas

tup tup..pastu sha kate die saje2 msg ameen one day ni n ameen reply. n they were going out together for quite sometimes lepas tu. sha mcm suke kat ameen. i je belom jumpe lagi. cume dgr citer sha je. then, satu malam ni, after class master, sha ajak pg makan kat ss2..die pn nk jmpe ameen..at first, aku x nak..tp sha ajak jugak..so ok la.nak jugak kenal guy yg macam sha tengah angau tu hehe. kitorg pn pg la makan kat ss2 mrni, pj. mmg best la jmpe ameen.same otak giler mcm kitorg jugak.during that time, i was still having my heart broken moment dgn si raja lawak tu, so da lame x happy gelak2 mcm tu. i was having a good company that nite with ameen n sha. about half an hour after that, ameen got a call. pastu ameen cakap..best friend die nk dtg join skali..die pn da lame x jumpe bf die tu sbb bf die tu baru balik from japan.aku n sha pn were like ok..no big deal..tapi amin siap cakap kat aku..."Ha yana..ko nak kenal x ngn kawan aku ni.die ni kawan aku yg paling hensem,muke mcm Tom welling" i know it was gurau2 je la..i pun gurau2 jugak la "ok.ok.no prob" haha..saje je mase tu..malas nak layan ameen.

about 15 mins after that..datang la best friend ameen tu.tapi bersama seorg awek lain ye. i was like " oh da ade kapel mamat ni.comel awek die". pastu kitorg pn borak2 je la mcm biase..gelak2..masing2 kaki wat lawak..mmg aku happy malam tu..got to know jugak awek tu student uitm sri iskandar ..my previous workplace. i tanye umur awek tu brape..die cakap 23..pastu i tnye umur mamat tu jugak..die kate..die pn 23...i was like.."la..mudenyer kawan ameen ni"..fine.

pastu..3 days after that. sha told me mamat best friend ameen tu wanted to know me better. i was like "giler ke? die kan da ade gf..pastu mude sangat. x nak la"..pastu sha ckp "x la.die tipu kau. die same umur ngn ameen la (one year older than me). n ameen kate awek tu bukan gf die."..being heart broken for 3 times, i said "hmm..ye la..tu la lelaki..kalau nk ngorat..mulela x ngaku gf pulak.x nk la.tu mmg gf die la."..haha

pastu..ameen pulak call. "yana..weekend ni aku ngn epul (nama mamat tu hehe) nak main tenis kat tenis court kat umah sha. jomla join. epul pn ajak ko. die nak kenal ko la." i was like "x nak la giler (mase tu aku panggil ameen 'giler'). die tu da ade awek. lgpun die mude. x nk. x suke org mude. pas2 amen cakap "x la.die tipu. n tu bukan awek die. aku tau la. die kan best friend aku. die betol2 nak kenal ni. datang okeh!" dlm hati aku..laki ni sume same je..x cukup ngn satu..hehe..

so..aku pn x pg la tgk diorg main tenis wpun diorg pujuk bagai nk rak.besides, i was having a flu. tp mlm tu sha msg. 'beb. OU jom. nengok movie. epul ngn ameen ade sekali. sian epul'...i was like..hmm x pe la. pg je la. bukan sbb nk jmpe mamat tu tp sbb bosan n sbb nk tgk movie. so i pn pgla tgk movie ngn diorg. i jadi diri sendiri. x de control2.wat lawak je haha. tp diorg ni pandai..mase nengok movie..sempat pulak kapelkan aku ngn epul. aku ngn epul dok sebelah menyebelah. diorang duk belakang. whatever. so sambil tgk movie..borak2 biase je la. pas tgk movie, barula encik epul berani mintak no phone.. n bgtau la die sbnrnye same umur ngn amen..n ari tu bukan gf die bla bla bla..hehe..so aku pn bagi la no phone sbb die ni mcm beria2 nk kenal..kesian pulak.

so..pas tu..selalula kami bermsg2 n calling2..die mmg soft spoken n macam baik n macam tarik2 tali jugak la ngn aku.cheh. die sempat jugakla citer yg lepas malam kat ss2 tu die ade jmpe lg ameen ngn sha. n die mintak tlg sha carikan die gf. pastu sha rekomen aku pulak. pastu epul kate, sbnrnye die mmg nk sha kenalkan aku ngn die..hehe. tp hati masih belum terbukak lg. chewah. sampaila die ajak first dating on wekend kat pyramid. i pn said ok sbb nk tgk die tu mcm mane sbnrnye. so dr tgh hari smpai maghrib kitorg dating..i could see that die mmg baik..mmg bersungguh2 nak serius in relationship n yg paling aku suke..die x tinggal solat pun..n x gatal yg paling penting hehe...

so lepas tu kami pun kapel la..n bermula la segala yg indah2 dlm relationship kami.n that's why i nak pg sangat sha n ameen's wedding sbb kami ni kawin ngn BFF masing2 hehe...n i think it is so cute. so guyz..how's your first meet with your special one?

Sabar itu separuh daripada iman

Huhu..it's been 27 days already since i gave birth to Fari. How time flies...When I was pregnant for 9 months, my weight was 65 kg! Yup.. i didnt believe it myself. Even though my friends said it is a normal weigh for 9 months preggy ( who have same size like me ), i felt that i was overweight. I do eat a lot during that time. It just not only about me- getting pregnant, but my appetite was like super-unusual! i wanted to eat everything..well, i thought i'm getting bigger n heavier due to my pregnancy n i have another human being inside me--but uppss i guess i was wrong. After i gave birth, my weigh reduced to 59kg..i was so shock..i thought i will have back my actual weight which is 50 kg haha...

Now, after 27 days of confinement, my weight is 55 kg...huhu..i never thought it is so hard to loose weight after giving birth and getting back my actual weight and size. It's ok mama...u still have time b4 going back to work. ok..need to work harder on it!

Pissed Off

Bengangnyer la ngn akak operator MARA sorang ni. I got an offer to sit for MARA's Personality Test (Session 1) . This test is one of three sessions that candidates need to complete on for MARA's teacher/ Lecturer position. The test will be held on this Saturday (23rd of October). But, the venue will be at Kolej MARA Beranang. And of course, i am still in my confinement period!

So, I call la number HQ MARA yg provided dlm website tu utk mintak tukar venue je pn sine i x boleh nak berjalan jauh lg coz i dlm pantang. Last Monday, I called, adela akak ni jawab. Die cakap x boleh tukar. Pastu, my hubbt try call pulak..ade seorang encik Mansor ni jawab..die kate nnti die cube tanye boss n will call back later. Tunggu2 x de plak Cik Mansor ni call balik..so i pn call la balik hari ni...and Cik Mansor x de hari ni...cik akak tu lagi yg menjawab...x de kesian langsung...agak kasar..die cakap x boleh tukar..hey come on la...ape la susah sgt setakat nk tukar venue tu..lagipun test ni dibuat serentak satu Malaysia and I had been asking since Monday...bukan last minute pon!

Hmmm...fine..anggap je la x de rezki kan..i pn da x berminat nak2 pk perangai pekerja2 mcm ni yg malas nak tanya boss diorg dulu. Ntah2 boss diorg pn ade hati perut...huhu...malas la nak layan...I am pissed off!

sabar lagi

tadi pg pg klinik kesihatan jalan gambut, with my mom n dad, bawak fari pergi amek darah lagi...sian die..masuk kali ni dah 6 kali amek darah. sampai2 dah pukul 11 am, nurse kat kaunter kata dah tutup...nak check jaundice sampai kul 9 pg je...my mom silap paham fasal time die..rase kecewa pn ade jgk la dlm hati sbb nk tau sgt jaundice fari dah turun ke or makin naek..pastu ade sorang nurse lain yg baik hati ni bagitau..."x pe la makcik (refer to my mom yer, bukan i tau hehe)..saye buat la kejap..saya amik darah baby kejap b4 saye balik"...hmm..dlm hati aku...'Fari ni selalu jer ade luck'....

So, akak nurse yg baik sikit ni pn amekla darah fari kat kaki die...nanges kejap die...tp sikit je nanges...fari ni mmg tahan sakit agaknye..ingt lagi..mase aku accident dulu mase pregnantkan fari 5 bulan...teruk jugak myvi aku kene langgar ngn myvi apek tu...i was so worried about my baby dlm my womb mase tu...dlm otak..just pk nak scan cepat2...takut ape2 kan...siap kene marah ngn doctor... " can not...kesihatan u lagi penting ...baby nnti kite check kemudian...yg penting u...because u're bleeding kat kepala"...mmg nak nanges je mase tu n i was like..i don't care bout me anymore...i just want to know how's my baby's condition inside! Lepas dah kene jahit kat belakang kepala..15 stitches jugak la...barula dibawa ke bilik gynae..nk check baby...punyala lama nak tunggu doctor (kejadian ini berlaku di HTAR ye)...sampai aku muntah2..bile da muntah..barula semua nurse n doctor cuak..doctor pn scan my tummy..n guess what...my baby siap joget2 mase scan tu...doctor cakap "see...your baby is just fine..he's very strong"...huhu...insyaAllah...anak mama kuat ye..

Anyway...lepas amek darah fahri tadi, nurse tu cakap..jaundice fari turun sikit je...from 176 to 160...still kene amek darah lg. Next appointment will be on this coming tuesday. huhu sian anak mama...now, rutin aku hari2...minum susu Anmum, Horlicks, Glukos satu gelas setiap hari and minum air suam sebanyak mungkin untuk make sure susu sentiasa banyak n Fari will get the best milk from me..Fari pn kene jemur pagi2 oleh atok die...pastu 2 jam sekali kene kejut fari untuk menyusu sbb die suke tido..

hmmm...sabar je lagi...

Mama mia!

My baby still got jaundice...we can see from his face...hopefully the jaundice is getting less and less...go away mr. Jaundice...poor my little child!

My son, on his 16th day

my bb

Fari, when he was 2-days-old..mama loves u so much

Finally, i got a chance to jot down something on my helpless blog hihi. Alhamdulillah, I'm a mama now! Thank You Allah s.w.t for this gift.

My son, fari is 16-day old today. Alhamdulillah, he is a fine baby but last 2 weeks were quite challenging for me as my baby is having jaundice since day 2 until now. Poor him..Tomorrow, he needs to go for another blood test check up...to see whether his jaundice is increasing or getting less. Last check-up, which was on yesterday (Thursday), the level was at 173, which had increased from the previous level, 148. 250 and above, the baby will be warded. Fari had once warded on last week, for one night only, when the level reached 267. Only God knows how I felt during that time. I was so worried and the only thing that I could do was crying and praying.Ya Allah, semoga anakku cepat pulih dari jaundice.

I call him Fari. The name was chosen by me since the papa did not really mind for any names. He was born in Shah Alam, on Thursday, 30th September 2010, at 1.59 pm. Alhamdulillah, i managed to deliver him normally without too long pain. My hubby was always beside me during the labour process. And even funnier, he was the one who 'push push push' , louder than me! haha...i love u papa!

I was at my MIL's house for one week after I gave birth. My mom had came all the way from Kuantan to accompany me for almost 2 weeks. Mommy, thank u so much! I love u sooo much! My MIL also was very nice towards me and my her first grandson...thank u Mak..she was crying all the way when i wanted to go back to Kuantan. She loves her grandson so much, I know.

Now, I am at my heaven, Kuantan. Menjalani pantang larang berpantang. I can't wait to end this confinement period successfully. Due to his jaundice, Fari loves to sleep...it's very hard to see him with eyes open. I really hope when he's getting better, he will be more active and healthy. At the moment, i just breastfeed him without giving him any formula milk, yet. Because according to most people, the best cure for jaundice is mom's milk. It's ok...i sacrifice my beauty sleep at the moment till u recover, my Fari. Anything for u!

OMG! I am a mother! And I still can't believe it!