My Aneesa

 

Aneesa Aisha sayang. Sorry sayang mama, when you came into this world, mama was super busy with new job, workplace, never-ending tasks. But I love you tenderly.

Aneesa is a very smart girl. I believe she will grow up becoming a very successful lady, insyaAllah dunia and akhirat. Allah Maha Baik Maha Pengampun Maha Penyayang. He blesses me with a daughter, wonderful daughter Alhamdulillah. She is just 2 years and a half but MasyaAllah her character, her intelligence really impress me. Bila tengok Neesa, mama hanya mampu memuji kebesaran dan kekuasaan Allah swt.

She is sooo cheeky. Funny. Smart. She is so adorable alhamdulillah. Her fav youtube videos for now is ‘Diana and Roma’. But she can be so garang too. With everyone! Haha I really need to train her to be more respectful to elderly. For now, I will just layankan sometimes.

Oh ya the challenge to raise her I will say she hardly to get in bed early. And there you go, mama is a sleepy zombie at night coz need to temankan her. Nevertheless, mama always pray that Aneesa Aisha will grow up healthily, gracefully, sopan santun, hormat orang tua and success always dunia and akhirat. Aneesa, my best companion. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah the Almighty.

My Naeem

My Naeem. Actually I am quite sad that I was not able to record memory as much as I did for Ashman for Naeem (and Neesa of course). Especially bila diorang dah besar ni, oh dear there were numbers of events and significant milestones that I did not manage to keep here. Sad. Due to my busy and hectic schedule. Anyway let’s continue with Naeem.

Naeem kesayangan opah. Itu yang boleh I kata. Of course la we love him so much. Naeem ni challenging a bit as he loves to argue with you (more to asking why I can’t do this and that) BUT for me I truly believe that this is a test by Allah for husband and I so that we will improve to become a better parent and a better khalifah, specifically. For me, Alhamdulillah I truly understand his character. But the challenge is to what extent that I should be nice and kind, and when I should be more strict, you know what I mean. Tapi I selalu muhasabah diri when Naeem buat kite marah because that’s when you have to reflect upon yourself. Thank you Naeem. I know you are a good boy and YOU ARE. He is such a sweetheart at times. He is so caring yet sensitive. But mama has to be firm because mama wants the best for you my darling. I know you are. Biasalah budak2 nak membesarkan..

Unlike his brother, this one tak suka makan sangat, still nak makan bersuap and still minum susu dalam botol ye tuan tuan and puan puan ahaha nasibla naeem if naeem baca ni just take it as something yang lucu untuk diingat ok. But he is the one yang easily to get friends, very active and of course la his deep and loud voice tu semua orang tau. But, when it comes to taking pictures, still shy2 cat just like the brother. A gadget freak jugak so mama memang pantau 24 hours. And the best part is, suka tolong mama kemas rumah, I must say he can be very particular and quite perfectionist when it comes to keep the house neat and tidy.

Academic wise, so-so juga and I really need to get him motivated so that he will love studying and learning. Actually dengan naeem ni, you have to use psychology.. I mean to all kids la actually. So that they will understand why they need to study and not just spend time watching tv or playing. As parents, we just need to put extra effort. Kena rajin skit to explain this and that.

My latest update October 2020- Ashman

 

Alhamdulillah..now I am a mother of 3 kids who I see and love every single day

Ashman Fahri 10 yrs old

Aariz Naeem 8 yrs old

Aneesa Aisha 2 yrs old

I have abandoned this blog for so long. Thus, I owe few stories.

First, let me talk about the kids.

Ashman

Look how he has grown up, literally heh. I mean, most of my acquaintances be it family members or friends, they are so overwhelmed when talking about how ashman, my ashman has changed physically haha. I pun kadang-kadang tak sedar bila masanya dia jadi besar gitu. But, I always remind him to control his food intake. Even though, some people will argue that I should just have let him eat whatever he wants to but NO… I strictly monitor his food intake.. Aishhh takkan kita je pandai nak cantik-cantik, nak look good. I want my kids to look good as well and most importantly to eat healthily and of course to live healthily. Actually I am happy to see him having so much love towards food but he needs to know where to draw the line.

Academic wise, he is so-so je la but Alhamdulillah. My husband and I, we have tried our best to make sure that he is on the right track even though he needs to improve in so many ways. Now, I send him for BM tuition every Saturday as his BM adoyaiiii. His English Alhamdulillah pergghhh accent dia kalah mama speaking. But he really needs to improve more on his handwriting, communication skill, socialising skill and need to be more organised. Oh ya, he used to be at number one among his classmates when he was in primary 2. I am a proud mama.

Behaviour wise, Alhamdulillah he is such a sweetheart. Cuma adalah perangai budak2 lagi macam still tak malu pakai baju depan orang kat living room hahah hadoii penat mama bebel tang ni. Of course la gadget lover tp I am trying my best to limit his screen time. Solat, walaupun still kena remind most of the time but insyaAllah solat no 1 ok ye sayang mama.

First Entry in 2020!

Happy 2020 people of the millenium!
Assalamualaikum 2020!

Finally I have time to blog! I feel so sad for not being able to jot down anything since few months back. I was adapting, adjusting and rejuvenating if I can say that, with the new job as a school teacher.Guess what, it has been one year and 3 months that I have taught here.There are so may things that I wanna talk about; my job, my family, my kids, places that we went and some important events in my life.But I had sacrificed my desire to write as I really need to focus more on other commitments such as my never-ending tasks as a teacher and most importantly my kids.I’ll try my best to summarise on some important events.My job:I have learned so many things here as a teacher, in a private school. I guess working in private and public sector will have some differences. Some of the things that make me happy here:

1-I love most of the students here. They can be such a sweetheart most of the times. This maybe due to how do I treat them.. as a human. I have always treated my students as human beings. Of course, there is a limitation. But, as long as they do not go over the line, then I will just stick to ‘why not’. Most importantly, my class lesson is delivered. They always say I am the nicest teacher ever (it can be true or maybe they just want to say something nice, it doesn’t matter). Yes, I have never been too strict with my students. I have never punished them to stand on a chair, I have never shouted to them. What for? They are grown up kids. They have pride too. The least that I do is I will ask them to sing a full English song in front of the class (this works ok, thanks to my ex-lecturer during degree years for introducing this kind of punishment). Most of my students will hand in their works because they feel so shy to sing in front of the class. For me, shouting and screaming will be my final option to punish them. Haven’t we had learned in educational psychology class ( especially ones with education major) on approaches that we can apply to nurture the students? Practice what you have learned teachers! Well, of course it depends. If you think your current approach works best with your students, do go ahead. But, aren’t these kids have feelings?We have learned in EP class on what will happen to a human’s brain and psychology when we scold them too much, right? Yes, I understand some of mischievous students need to learn their lesson. But, shouting and cursing them with unnecessary words are just not the right thing to do. Instead, you can ask them to write two essays instead of one if they do not hand in their homework, as for an example.

2- I am getting more organised with my KPI now as a teacher. For me, last year was an experimenting year. To be honest, I think I was only 50% satisfied with my task. Of course, I was very active last year (because I had a very passionate group of students last year). They were my pushing factor. I was involved with so many programs. The Kindness Week (we won the grant) but in terms of implementing the project, I know I can do better. The Haunted House Charity Show, it turned out well. The Charity Visit to PPKKI, I would say I did not really like it. Teaching-wise, I didn’t feel that I was succeed in all of my lesson plans. So this year, I am more organised as I decided that I MUST bring home some of my working tasks to home especially on weekend. I am very aspired to have wonderful lessons throughout the year. The fact that there will be more teaching and learning observations this year, it has made me more prepared and I need to push myself to become more creative in teaching. But of course, I am not doing this for the sake of the observations or for my superior’s good impression, but like I have mentioned earlier so many times, it is more on self-satisfaction as a teacher. I will spend few hours o every weekend to plan the best lesson for my students.

3- My HRT class for this year is from secondary 1. You now, at first, I was quite sceptical and doubting myself whether I can teach Form 1 because in my head, I was imagining them to be out of control and I will turn to a monster by practicing some stricter rules. But guess what, I have been their HRT for almost a month and I like it! And I can conclude that, I love to monitor them more because they are more open, you know, young teenagers like them, they are still adapting with a more-matured environment. Unlike the upper secondary students who are more restrictive and private, S1 students are more friendly and adorable. But of course I love my HRT class year equally and I am still missing them! My point is, we really need to have the right approach regardless the level of students that we are teaching. There are always be pros and cons. I remember in my last self-appraisal form, I wrote one of my strengths is I am very flexible when it comes to teaching any age group of students. Well, I guess I have started proving them.

4- I might not be loved by all of my colleagues as how I felt in my previous workplaces. But, I already have a few cliques that I think I can really get along with. I really hope I can be friends and close with everyone. And like what I have been practicing since the first day I started working back in 2007; we should be kind to everyone. I don’t like dramas or conflicts. I really hope they can respect that. I am so thankful that Allah swt has granted me with this ability of taking care others’ feeling hahahahaha what about my feeling? Well it’s ok, for me, if you please people, there is no way that people gonna hate you. But of course the utmost rule in life is; you have to please Him, then your life will be pleasant.

Ok I need to stop now.Next post, I am gonna talk about my kids! Oh dear, there are so many things that I wanna share about them! I really hope I can keep em here as memories. Chiaowww