2-month young

Fahri.besok mama start hantar Fahri umah Opah.jangan nakal2 keh.jgn susahkan opah sgt. susahkan sikit je hehe. hari ni genap Fahri 2 bulan. harap2 Fahri makin kuat minum susu n x nak ngamuk2 keh...be a good boy. ma n pa sayang Fahri banyak ni (nampak x panjang tangan mama ni?) ha..banyak ni lah. ok syg. mama mls nk masuk kejer balik sbnrnye. tp kan nak bagi Fahri makan, baju cantik2 n mcm2 lg la. huhu sedehnye. x nk pi kejer besok boleh x. nak dok ngn fahri je macam hari2

Alhamdulilllah

A wonderful one year indeed. syukur pd Allah s.w.t...

crazy!

Dear Blog,

Even though i really hate this whole week, i want u to remember these dates (24th-30th Nov 2010) as the most hectic, craziest, restless, insane and ridiculous moments in my life (so far).

1-i have to try to finish up my RP before 30th, in fact, i need to re-do some of the chapters! (oh thank u to Dr S for not telling me earlier that my research is not really match my field of study! i geramm sangat..it is obviously u didnt read my chapters earlier, when u are supposed to! i really feel like i had wasted my time...luckily, i don't have to re-do the whole thing! it is even scarier to think whether my topic will be approved by senate or not...i thought u should know the whole process! urghhhhhhhhhhh

2-this week, most of the time i am all alone with fahri at home (hubby is working n have some training courses to attend)..of course fahri is my priority! so, just pray that my little boy will behave nicely ever because his mama is so angry and is so lack of time to do everything at one time (pleaseee baby, be a good boy ok..jangan ngamuk2)

3-i need to start with breastpump-ing as i'm going to start my duty soon..but do i have time? and of course i want fahri to drink my milk more than formula milk once i leave him with my MIL soon...so i have to mengepam within this week...

4- fahri loves to mengamuk without reasons lately...we have checked everything...he doesnt want milk, he doesnt poo-poo and he doesnt have kembung perut as well!..all he wants is to be in my lap or daddy's lap..oh fahri..how mama wishes i could only focus on u without thinking bout anything else!

5-of course i need to do my household chores..especially cooking n washing fahri's nappies..it's ok baby..mama will try to make time..

all i can do is to pray to Allah s.w.t to lighten my burden make thing easier for me...insyaAllah..i really dont want to extend to one more semester...ameen

happy rimas

finally..fahri and I had happily returned to our vista bayu home sweet home

I am happy because i am already back @ my little heaven here in Klang. That means 3 of us are living together again like a real family now. small family n we are grateful to Allah s.w.t. my parent n lil sis are still here and there in KL..they'll be going back to Kuantan once the new little angel of my big bro arrives into this world soon..ohh..i can't wait..

I am rimas bcause even though i am supposedly to enjoy my few-days-left before going back to work next week, i dont have that much time to entertain other ppl (family n friends) n myself as i am in the mission to complete my Research Project paper a.s.a.p....going to meet my Dr S tomorrow. hope everything is ok n i am on the right track. Endless love and thanks toward my mummy who sacrifices her time to stay at my crib to look after Fahri while i'm doing my RP n going to see the supervisor tomorrow. sangat sangat sangat sayang umi n wa.

hmm..fahri seems to be in 'getting use to' mood at our house (it's your house, your real house baby!) The first two nights were quite nightmare for both hubby n I..just imagine..he was crying for 1 hour non stop..very loud..like something was bothering him...shuhh shuhh..stop bothering my baby! hmm..or maybe he wanted to announce his existence here at this area haha..

hubby seems very busy these days. meeting till late evening...training courses....but still..we manage to steal time n went for our first outing together with little fahri..huhu..we had learned our very important lesson if we want to take Fahri out (not sure for other babies)...*prepare Fahri's milk from home..dream on if u think that u will shake his milk and get the boiled water at the shopping mall! sometimes the mall's baby room services are not that good..huh.and Fahri was meragam n merajuk like mad! haha..what la...anyway, hubby n I have learned our lesson..so first attempt was not that successful...our next outing mission will be on this coming Sunday..hmm..can't wait..it's our first anniversary! Alhamdulillah..

i am quite nervous to meet my Dr S tomorrow....hoping everything is ok...finger crossed

Fahri loves to observe people while in his 'car'...he is practicing his 'observer' skill i guess?

Entry Rindu

It has been 11 months that hubby and I had tied the knot. i knew him for 8 months before i decided to get engaged with him, and 8 months later, we get married. how time flies. now, epul junior had made his appearance in our life.

Knowing your partner before and after marriage is totally a huge different thing. There are so many things that i've learned about my hubby as we have lived and stayed together for 11 months.

1. He is a super organized and detailed person! just imagine, he is the one who will put my important documents accordingly in few files without fail! i used to be a 'nyanyok' makcik who will always forget where did i put my stuffs including the important ones! i used to be the one who have so many unwanted 'rubbish' in my handbag! i used to be the one who never checked my car's battery (now he already changed it to free-maintenance battery) or the condition of my car's tyre but now...not anymore. i have someone who will always remind me to organize my things. if not, he will do it and i will get a 'nice' lecture from him! hihi

2. He doesn't really know how to cook. But, i love it when he tried to cook especially when i was helpless during my 1st trimester of pregnancy. I love the effort that he has shown in our kitchen even though all the 'rempah', 'tumis' and 'minyak' will splash to all over the ceiling...hehe..but honey..i love your 'telur bungkus' and 'ayam kfc'!

3. apart of his minor ability in cooking, he loves to make drinks! i will not be allowed to be in the kitchen if he is making his 'cincau laici', 'soya cicau' or 'milo kaww'..(chehh..secret recipe konon)

4. he is such a lovely brother to all his younger sisters and brother. i love the way he treats his siblings. He likes to make jokes, teasing around and every time we go for a vacation or shopping, he will always call and ask them if they want anything..

5. he is such a father darling! i am so mesmerized with his love and attention that he has shown towards fahri

6. he is a Liverpool die hard fan! Do not say anything bad about Liverpool or he will tarik muke 14! He will stick in front of TV and try not to suggest to switch to other channels when he is in 'liverpool' world

7. He is a snooker addict! knowing the fact that i don't really like him to play snooker that often, he will call me nicely, i will get the nicest words ever from him just for the sake to get my permission hehe

8. He loves small cactus and small fish very much!

9. his favorite food- rojak, ikan keli sambal, caramel pudding & sayur pucuk paku goreng tauchu. his favorite color- red,

10. i could say he is a perfectionist. he will make sure he will get the best out of the best!

11. he is a very determined employee and a strict boss to his staffs

12. he is more friendly than i am

13. he loves to smile and he has the best smile..

14. most of the time, he knows how to decide on things! and it is always the best decision. i love to consult with him if i am clueless about things..

15. his thoughts are making sense most of the time

16. he likes smart casual look..and hell yeah...he is so neat and tidy..

17. he doesn't like to help me washing the dishes, but he will have no problem to clean the rooms and washing the clothes

18. he has good PR! his communication skill had helped us a lot in getting our dream-stuffs

19. he has this charm of good-lucks

20. above all, he is a very loving husband and we never had an argument in our marriage life. merajuk2 kecik tu ade la...

Alhamdulillah...hope this will last forever...insyaAllah...

On what not

I am happy today. It is because i had clearly understood on how to analyze my data! haha..thank u so much to my Dr. Supervisor! You really make things so much easier for me when i only could reach u via e-mails and mobile! I love u! I will start to analyze my data by today..and hopefully i will manage to finish it within this week..insyaAllah (finger crossed)

On the other note, i am waiting for an arrival of a new member of Abdul Salam's Clan! I'll be getting my new nephew really2 soon. My SIL is expected to give birth on this 18th of Nov (Thursday)...However, if she gives birth earlier than the date expected, we will be going to KL earlier jugak la..ohh..i can't wait to meet mr hubby and live under one roof again with him n of course with our little Fahri as well... oh, maybe i'll be celebrating and spending my Raya Haji here, at my parent's house without my hubby..it's ok..i'll meet him very2 soon..i don't know how good i am in managing my Fahri without my mom's help soon once i go back to my Klang's house. My hubby might be a good assistant, but what will happen if i have to manage Fahri alone when he is out for work? InsyaAllah i'll be fine...Fahri..u're a good boy, aren't u? (tag question resembles uncertainty? hehe) I'll start my duty back on 1st of December..so i'll have 2 weeks more or less to enjoy my so-called holiday..i think i'll fill it with my research project's works..

Oh..i just ordered and bought 7 items of hijab collections from online boutique! i am just soooo in love with diverse types of hijab and anak tudung...i can't wait to wear them and match them with my attires that i have abandoned since my 2nd trimester of pregnancy. To my clothes...i miss u guys a lot!

my biggest wish at the mo' is to complete my master's RP a.s.a.p. I will try n i will not put so much hope (knowing my true ability and procrastinate skill)...but am hoping a miracle will endure! haha..insyaAllah

kesayangan chapter 1

i'm done with chapter 1. phewwww! still have chapter 4 & 5...God, help me!

Kupu-Kupu

Ashman Fahri & Wali Amar Rifqi

Yesterday's evening, my cousin came to my crib..well, out of sudden ( he loves to do that )..but yesterday. he brought along his wife and kids. The above picture is fahri was sleeping beside rifqi. So, they are kupu-kupu la because fahri's mother and rifqi's father is sepupu hehe. Actually, Rifqi is only one day older than Fahri...so..u guyz can celebrate your birthday together okay! babies are just so cute when they are together..that's why twins are so dammnnn cute

kedegilan Chapter 1

napela susah sgt nk menyiapkan chapter 1 ni..when it supposes to be the easiest chapter huhu..i've sent my chapter 2 and 3..tp draft je la..it's ok..lps ni just edit2 je la..so x de idea nk wat chapter 1 ni..baru half way..i lost my words and thought...idea idea..cptla dtg..maybe i should do more reading..or maybe it is because this is the last day of my confinement...hehe

Cukur Jambul

I never like the term 'cukur jambul'. it sounds funny. Why not 'cukur rambut kat depan sikit'?..We had a 'cukur jambul' ceremony on last saturday. I am so happy that my family in law could make it to the majlis. And of course the papa! sangat lepas rindu hehe...during that day, we couldn't find any expertise to botakkan n shave fahri's head..so hubby and I have decided to postpone it when Fahri will turn 2 months. Maybe we will just simply go to any barber's shop and shave his hair clean cut! So, these are the pictures during the ceremony. I am so in love with my 2 heroes-papa and Fahri

me..hehe..

still need to reduce some kgs...

happy face from mama

ma n fahri

us..

fahri will become a good boy when he is in papa's arm

my soul

atok2 marhaban with my dad

my FIL n MIL

Papa suke manjakan Fahri..yelar jarang2 dpt jumpe

me with my luvly sis

my sis n my mom

me with my sis n sis in laws

my kesayangan.mwah!

p/s: to those who wish to further their study, please do it before u have kids! i'm telling u..i've never imagined it is so hard to do your thesis when your baby is wanting milk, crying all the way, wanting to be in your lap and arm all the time...and their cuteness will stop u from writing your chapters! Mind u!

Doa for my sis

This is my one and only sis, Mira. I love her very much. Very much. Sbb aku sayang die, how could i tell her that i want her to be a good daughter, good lady, good sis, good student and good muslimah of course.

Dear sis bucuk, (if only she can read this)..

kak na nak yah tahu..kak na syg sgt ngn yah. u r my only sis.
i wish i could tell u that please jangan tinggal solat. jangan lawan cakap our parents. kalau keluar rumah, tutupla aurat, jgn layan budak2 laki yg ntah pape tu. sbb yah cantik. ramai org suke. jagela diri.

i know i m not that good. n maybe i am not good enough to be her role model.. but, i want her to be a good gurl. zaman skrg risau betul tgk macam2 kes fasal masalah sosial remaja. i dont know whether she has good friends or not. whatever she does, i pray that she will not leave her solat, ingat our parents..jgn malukan diorg..ingtla Allah S.W.T..

I am so regret sbb ade juge terlalai n terleka mase zaman awal2 remaja dulu. And i don't want her to be like that. I want the best for u, sis...love u..

The experience

Fari....2nd day

I would like to share the moment, the experience that i have gone through, when I was delivering Fari on 30th September 2010.

So, i was supposedly give birth to Fari on 10.10.10. That was the due date if he reaches 40 weeks...but he was born one week earlier....

ok..on monday (27th Sept) i went to work as usual la. siap pg lunch kat ole2 seksyen 18 lg..we had lunch at Kopitiam Pak Li..with my best colleagues (Aida, Fina & Fifa)..pastu siap tengok2 shawl..beli shawl..mmg berjalan je lar kejer nye (org kata kalau banyak berjalan...senang n cepat beranak)..then, when we went back to our office, i went to the lo..rase nk pee...tp ternampak satu kesan mcm bleeding..but it was just very little of it..then i went back to my office n planned to re-check after that..so every half an hour after that about 3 times, i re-checked whether there is more blood, but no..it was only the first bleeding..and i told my colleagues bout that..and they were like "Yanaaaa..ko da nk beranak" "Pergi klinik cepaattttt" haha so funny la diorg ni..siap ade yg bergambar lg ngn my tummy takot i terberanak besok haha..

But, i didnt go to see my gynae straight afterward, i told hubby about that and he asked me to call the gynae. I tried to reach her but the nurse said that she had a case that she needed to handle during that time..and the nurse promised me to call me back..i waited for few hours but the gynae didnt call back yet..so i decided to go back first..my hubby fetched me and we went back to my MIL's house..then, i got a call from the nurse, she said the doctor asked me to come over to the clinic for a check-up..

Then, we went to UMRA at 8 pm..then, i met Dr. Sudha..she checked my 'opening'..she said.."Oooh dear..it's already 3 cm. it's gonna be this week"..i was like "What? 3 cm? are u serious Dr?"..then she replied.."Hey, u are questioning my profession" haha sambil kenyit mata..ye la..x caya la..sbb due lmby lg..so she gave me MC for three days. die x bagi pg kejer da.. i called my mom..pastu my mom said she wanted to come over to look after me..

So, bermulalah game 'penantian satu penyeksaan'..my colleague especially Fina..everyday was asking me "Yana...dah ke" hehe sabarr..so..tuesday n wednesday..just rest kat umah la..but..on tuesday..i was so tired n rase x larat sgt..tp sempat lg cakap kat my mom n hubby.."teringin nk makan ketam masak lemak cili api" so..hubby pn belila ketam on wednesay but i told my mom to cook it for thursday's lunch...sbb budget baby kuar on Friday la..pastu, on Thursday, lepas online around 9 am, rase cam healthy sgt tp rase nk baring2..tetibe rase ade macam ter'pee' plak..macam ade air kuar..dlm hati 'alamak..ni air ketuban ke?'..my hubby was sleeping beside me..i kejut die cakap "Pa..ma rase air ketuban mi da pecah la"..so my hubby n my mom pn gelabah la..tp yg kelakarnye..sumer tiga2 skali sempat lg mandi tu haha..x nak busuk la konon..so pg klinik..around 9.45 am sampai UMRA..

dr Sudha pn check my 'opening'..she said still 3 cm..tp die kate air tu mmg air ketuban..but belum pecah lg..just bocor..but she said i kene admit hari tu jugak n maybe akan bersalin around 5pm...hayyooh..mase ni mmg dup da dup dap la...takottt...so..i pn admitted la dlm wad at 10.45 mcm tu..diorg ambik heartbeat baby sumer..ade sorang practical nurse n one midwife..hubby n mom balik dulu sbb ingt ke lambat lg..kelakar..my mom siap nk balik sbb nk masakkan ketam tu haha..but i said da x sempat la..dr da x bagi makan da..

so..around 11.30, Dr. induce sbb nk kasi contraction..because i was not having any contraction eventhough bukaan da 3 cm. so start rase saket around 1 pm..mase tu hubby da ade kt sblh..mmg dok cengkam tgn die je la kejer nye every time datang contraction..mmg sakit ya amattt...rase x tahan sgt..mcm piriod pain yg melampau2...tp i've heard mase tu that midwife told my husband i maybe bersalin around 5 pm macam tu...5 pm ape...tetibe around 1 pm..rase nk buang air besar tp saket sangatttttt...then i jerit.."sakeetttt..rase nk poo poo" hehe..pastu sume org da gelabah..ye la..sbb x budget baby da nk kuar that early..dr pn masuk bilik..n said "Ok Yana..this is the time. u kene push ok"..mase tu i was blur..i didnt know yg rase saket sangat mcm nk buang air besar tu sbnrnye saket baby da nk kuar..tp da x boleh pk sbb contraction saket sangat...so i guess dalam push yg ke-5, barula baby keluar..last push tu sbnrnyer i push dgn penuh semangat sbb dr kate die nak vacuum.. so i macam takot giler smpai push dgn sangat kuat haha..Alhamdulillah..labour pain i x lame..around 1.59 pm..lahirla Fary..n thanks to hubby..teman push yg sgt hebat!

pastu..bile stitching process..ya Allah..lg sakit rupenyer..sbb Dr nk kuarkan darah2 beku kt dlm..smpai rase nk tendang Dr..tp Alhamdulilah..semuanya dipermudahkan. Oh ya..mase sakit contraction n nk push tu..sempatla baca Doa Nabi Yunus n selawat banyak2..mmg membantu..so..kalau nk ingt balik sakit beranak..mmgla rase cukupla sorang tapi lame2 da x ingt da..Syukur Alhamdulillah..

yeayyyy yahooo!

Kenal x minah ni. Name die Fatin Liyana. she's so cute kan..sbnrnye ramai je manusia yg cantik kat muke bumi ni..tapi sbb die ni cantik plus menutup aurat. I suke tgk gurls yg pakai tudung tp still nampak style...siap ade ribbon lg atas tudung minah ni. so cute. sorry to fatin liyana. i took this picture frm your blog sbb u cute sgt hehe

ok..enough of her...today i went for outing with my sis, mira n fari..sbb my mom sibok nk prepare for this saturday (buat majlis cukur jambul fahri), so tpaksela bawak fari skali. actually nk cari botol susu for fari sbb die x nak minum susu botol lngsung..da mcm2 puting tukar n try tp die x nk. die nk direct breastfeed jgk. susahla nk tgal umah MIL nnti lau die x nk botol..so hari ni aim la nk p cari botol susu yg tlah disuggestkan oleh member2 mcm First Years, Tommee Tippee n Mum..tp x de plak pg cr kat East Cost Mall td..so ths salesgurl pn suggest la puting brand Pigeon ni..da balik td..Alhamdulillah..Fari nk minum..hopefully die akan teros ok la ngn brand ni..

Papa Fary....

Everyday i am missing this man. But, have to bare with it. After my confinement, we'll definitely be together again, mama, papa n fahri under one roof. Kadang2 rindu sampai nangis. But, it is harder and tougher time for him...at least..i have Fari here..but he is all alone at our house back in Klang. Luckily, MIL's house is just nearby..

Now, Fari and I could only see him once in a fortnight ... he could not come here every week...he got so many works to settle on and it doesn't take 10 minutes to reach here!

It's ok. Mama sabar. papa sabar. fari pun sabar keh...

Fari is one month!

Sempena Fari dah one-month-old (Alhamdulillah), this is a tribute post to my little hero. Mama n papa luv u so much Fary dear...muaackksss

Sayangnyer nenek ngn die...nenek la dok mandikan die tiap2 ari..tolong mama jage fary

Dah besar...da selalu nk senyum..kalau x..muke garang macam ketua polis =)

Fari sekejap tembam sekejap kurus balik...nnti mama kasi susu banyak2 lg keh

Macam2 gaya dah umor sebulan ni...

Favorite style Fari..moncong2..ikut sape ek..hehe

mata sebelah pn nk senyum

Gaya tido fav. Fari..mcm papa die

Ya Allah..thank U for this precious gift..sesungguhnye Kau Maha Agung lagi Maha Pengasih...

disiplin, mama!

ohhh..i must, compulsory to do these like there is no tomorrow!

1- sila patuh segala disiplin berpantang! --mandi air suam, jgn minum air yg sejuk or air yg x berapa nk suam, pakai barut/ bengkung 24 hours!, pakai socks
2- sebelum pakai bengkung...sapu minyak panas n amalkan petua2 utk kempiskan perut
3- sile jangan terlebih makan
4- jgn lupe minum susu
5- makan nasi- sikit je, makan nasi panas2..jgn ambil kuah bnyk sgt
6- sila buat thesis anda..now chapter 2--sabtu ni nk hantar draft chapter 2
7-jgn dok on9 jee..
8- bg breast feed sekerap yg mungkin to Fari
9 - sile check napkin/ pampers fari sekerap yg mungkin n tukar
10 - bahagikan masa dgn sbaiknyer--Fari, thesis, rehat

now tell me, sape kate berpantang tu banyak masa nk rehat...

BFFS

Ameen n Sha as our bridesmaids during our reception last year...

During Reception

Solemnization...congrats sayang!

pretty sha..

This post might be outdated but i would like to wish congratulation to my BFF--> Shahidah a.k.a Sha for her wedding on last 2nd of October 2010. I couldnt attend her beautiful akad nikah ceremony and reception because i just gave birth to my Fahri 2 days before...

Actually, i was quite frustrated when i got to know the dates of Sha's wedding because i afraid i will give birth somewhen closer to the date...because i was dying to go to the wedding....but sha said that is the best date that she could choose according to her availability. And i was right, i couldnt attend her wedding! My little angel arrived into this world 2 days before Aunty Sha's wedding. But, mr hubby did attend the wedding..

Of course my hubby and I (especially me) were looking forward to the wedding because both Sha and Ameen (her husband) were the one who indirectly 'menjodohkan' kami (my hubby and I).

Kalau ingat2 balik mmg kelakar la how we met and both of us- me n sha (bff) get married with Epul and ameen (bff jugak). I still remember, sha and I were having hard time, breaking up with our exxes..then one night on 2008, sha and I went to Hartamas to lepak2 n menenangkan fikiran..konon2 la..sambil2 cuci mata..suddenly my guyfriend, khairul called me and wanted to hang out with us that nite. Then, he came n we borak2 as usual..i introduced Sha to Khairul..pastu sha saje la tanye Khairul.. "Eh, kau ade x sape2 yg ko kenal yg boleh buat laki..tapi yg baik2 la" pastu khairul terus cakap "hmm..ade..die kejer tv3. name die ameen. aku bg number die keh"..mlm tu kitorg weng n giler sket sbb bosan..so sha selambe kate "ok.aku nak.tp takot la"..at that time actually si khairul ni tgh nk bg2 hint n usha kat aku..hehe..akhirnye melepas

tup tup..pastu sha kate die saje2 msg ameen one day ni n ameen reply. n they were going out together for quite sometimes lepas tu. sha mcm suke kat ameen. i je belom jumpe lagi. cume dgr citer sha je. then, satu malam ni, after class master, sha ajak pg makan kat ss2..die pn nk jmpe ameen..at first, aku x nak..tp sha ajak jugak..so ok la.nak jugak kenal guy yg macam sha tengah angau tu hehe. kitorg pn pg la makan kat ss2 mrni, pj. mmg best la jmpe ameen.same otak giler mcm kitorg jugak.during that time, i was still having my heart broken moment dgn si raja lawak tu, so da lame x happy gelak2 mcm tu. i was having a good company that nite with ameen n sha. about half an hour after that, ameen got a call. pastu ameen cakap..best friend die nk dtg join skali..die pn da lame x jumpe bf die tu sbb bf die tu baru balik from japan.aku n sha pn were like ok..no big deal..tapi amin siap cakap kat aku..."Ha yana..ko nak kenal x ngn kawan aku ni.die ni kawan aku yg paling hensem,muke mcm Tom welling" i know it was gurau2 je la..i pun gurau2 jugak la "ok.ok.no prob" haha..saje je mase tu..malas nak layan ameen.

about 15 mins after that..datang la best friend ameen tu.tapi bersama seorg awek lain ye. i was like " oh da ade kapel mamat ni.comel awek die". pastu kitorg pn borak2 je la mcm biase..gelak2..masing2 kaki wat lawak..mmg aku happy malam tu..got to know jugak awek tu student uitm sri iskandar ..my previous workplace. i tanye umur awek tu brape..die cakap 23..pastu i tnye umur mamat tu jugak..die kate..die pn 23...i was like.."la..mudenyer kawan ameen ni"..fine.

pastu..3 days after that. sha told me mamat best friend ameen tu wanted to know me better. i was like "giler ke? die kan da ade gf..pastu mude sangat. x nak la"..pastu sha ckp "x la.die tipu kau. die same umur ngn ameen la (one year older than me). n ameen kate awek tu bukan gf die."..being heart broken for 3 times, i said "hmm..ye la..tu la lelaki..kalau nk ngorat..mulela x ngaku gf pulak.x nk la.tu mmg gf die la."..haha

pastu..ameen pulak call. "yana..weekend ni aku ngn epul (nama mamat tu hehe) nak main tenis kat tenis court kat umah sha. jomla join. epul pn ajak ko. die nak kenal ko la." i was like "x nak la giler (mase tu aku panggil ameen 'giler'). die tu da ade awek. lgpun die mude. x nk. x suke org mude. pas2 amen cakap "x la.die tipu. n tu bukan awek die. aku tau la. die kan best friend aku. die betol2 nak kenal ni. datang okeh!" dlm hati aku..laki ni sume same je..x cukup ngn satu..hehe..

so..aku pn x pg la tgk diorg main tenis wpun diorg pujuk bagai nk rak.besides, i was having a flu. tp mlm tu sha msg. 'beb. OU jom. nengok movie. epul ngn ameen ade sekali. sian epul'...i was like..hmm x pe la. pg je la. bukan sbb nk jmpe mamat tu tp sbb bosan n sbb nk tgk movie. so i pn pgla tgk movie ngn diorg. i jadi diri sendiri. x de control2.wat lawak je haha. tp diorg ni pandai..mase nengok movie..sempat pulak kapelkan aku ngn epul. aku ngn epul dok sebelah menyebelah. diorang duk belakang. whatever. so sambil tgk movie..borak2 biase je la. pas tgk movie, barula encik epul berani mintak no phone.. n bgtau la die sbnrnye same umur ngn amen..n ari tu bukan gf die bla bla bla..hehe..so aku pn bagi la no phone sbb die ni mcm beria2 nk kenal..kesian pulak.

so..pas tu..selalula kami bermsg2 n calling2..die mmg soft spoken n macam baik n macam tarik2 tali jugak la ngn aku.cheh. die sempat jugakla citer yg lepas malam kat ss2 tu die ade jmpe lg ameen ngn sha. n die mintak tlg sha carikan die gf. pastu sha rekomen aku pulak. pastu epul kate, sbnrnye die mmg nk sha kenalkan aku ngn die..hehe. tp hati masih belum terbukak lg. chewah. sampaila die ajak first dating on wekend kat pyramid. i pn said ok sbb nk tgk die tu mcm mane sbnrnye. so dr tgh hari smpai maghrib kitorg dating..i could see that die mmg baik..mmg bersungguh2 nak serius in relationship n yg paling aku suke..die x tinggal solat pun..n x gatal yg paling penting hehe...

so lepas tu kami pun kapel la..n bermula la segala yg indah2 dlm relationship kami.n that's why i nak pg sangat sha n ameen's wedding sbb kami ni kawin ngn BFF masing2 hehe...n i think it is so cute. so guyz..how's your first meet with your special one?

Sabar itu separuh daripada iman

Huhu..it's been 27 days already since i gave birth to Fari. How time flies...When I was pregnant for 9 months, my weight was 65 kg! Yup.. i didnt believe it myself. Even though my friends said it is a normal weigh for 9 months preggy ( who have same size like me ), i felt that i was overweight. I do eat a lot during that time. It just not only about me- getting pregnant, but my appetite was like super-unusual! i wanted to eat everything..well, i thought i'm getting bigger n heavier due to my pregnancy n i have another human being inside me--but uppss i guess i was wrong. After i gave birth, my weigh reduced to 59kg..i was so shock..i thought i will have back my actual weight which is 50 kg haha...

Now, after 27 days of confinement, my weight is 55 kg...huhu..i never thought it is so hard to loose weight after giving birth and getting back my actual weight and size. It's ok mama...u still have time b4 going back to work. ok..need to work harder on it!

Pissed Off

Bengangnyer la ngn akak operator MARA sorang ni. I got an offer to sit for MARA's Personality Test (Session 1) . This test is one of three sessions that candidates need to complete on for MARA's teacher/ Lecturer position. The test will be held on this Saturday (23rd of October). But, the venue will be at Kolej MARA Beranang. And of course, i am still in my confinement period!

So, I call la number HQ MARA yg provided dlm website tu utk mintak tukar venue je pn sine i x boleh nak berjalan jauh lg coz i dlm pantang. Last Monday, I called, adela akak ni jawab. Die cakap x boleh tukar. Pastu, my hubbt try call pulak..ade seorang encik Mansor ni jawab..die kate nnti die cube tanye boss n will call back later. Tunggu2 x de plak Cik Mansor ni call balik..so i pn call la balik hari ni...and Cik Mansor x de hari ni...cik akak tu lagi yg menjawab...x de kesian langsung...agak kasar..die cakap x boleh tukar..hey come on la...ape la susah sgt setakat nk tukar venue tu..lagipun test ni dibuat serentak satu Malaysia and I had been asking since Monday...bukan last minute pon!

Hmmm...fine..anggap je la x de rezki kan..i pn da x berminat nak2 pk perangai pekerja2 mcm ni yg malas nak tanya boss diorg dulu. Ntah2 boss diorg pn ade hati perut...huhu...malas la nak layan...I am pissed off!

sabar lagi

tadi pg pg klinik kesihatan jalan gambut, with my mom n dad, bawak fari pergi amek darah lagi...sian die..masuk kali ni dah 6 kali amek darah. sampai2 dah pukul 11 am, nurse kat kaunter kata dah tutup...nak check jaundice sampai kul 9 pg je...my mom silap paham fasal time die..rase kecewa pn ade jgk la dlm hati sbb nk tau sgt jaundice fari dah turun ke or makin naek..pastu ade sorang nurse lain yg baik hati ni bagitau..."x pe la makcik (refer to my mom yer, bukan i tau hehe)..saye buat la kejap..saya amik darah baby kejap b4 saye balik"...hmm..dlm hati aku...'Fari ni selalu jer ade luck'....

So, akak nurse yg baik sikit ni pn amekla darah fari kat kaki die...nanges kejap die...tp sikit je nanges...fari ni mmg tahan sakit agaknye..ingt lagi..mase aku accident dulu mase pregnantkan fari 5 bulan...teruk jugak myvi aku kene langgar ngn myvi apek tu...i was so worried about my baby dlm my womb mase tu...dlm otak..just pk nak scan cepat2...takut ape2 kan...siap kene marah ngn doctor... " can not...kesihatan u lagi penting ...baby nnti kite check kemudian...yg penting u...because u're bleeding kat kepala"...mmg nak nanges je mase tu n i was like..i don't care bout me anymore...i just want to know how's my baby's condition inside! Lepas dah kene jahit kat belakang kepala..15 stitches jugak la...barula dibawa ke bilik gynae..nk check baby...punyala lama nak tunggu doctor (kejadian ini berlaku di HTAR ye)...sampai aku muntah2..bile da muntah..barula semua nurse n doctor cuak..doctor pn scan my tummy..n guess what...my baby siap joget2 mase scan tu...doctor cakap "see...your baby is just fine..he's very strong"...huhu...insyaAllah...anak mama kuat ye..

Anyway...lepas amek darah fahri tadi, nurse tu cakap..jaundice fari turun sikit je...from 176 to 160...still kene amek darah lg. Next appointment will be on this coming tuesday. huhu sian anak mama...now, rutin aku hari2...minum susu Anmum, Horlicks, Glukos satu gelas setiap hari and minum air suam sebanyak mungkin untuk make sure susu sentiasa banyak n Fari will get the best milk from me..Fari pn kene jemur pagi2 oleh atok die...pastu 2 jam sekali kene kejut fari untuk menyusu sbb die suke tido..

hmmm...sabar je lagi...

Mama mia!

My baby still got jaundice...we can see from his face...hopefully the jaundice is getting less and less...go away mr. Jaundice...poor my little child!

My son, on his 16th day

my bb

Fari, when he was 2-days-old..mama loves u so much

Finally, i got a chance to jot down something on my helpless blog hihi. Alhamdulillah, I'm a mama now! Thank You Allah s.w.t for this gift.

My son, fari is 16-day old today. Alhamdulillah, he is a fine baby but last 2 weeks were quite challenging for me as my baby is having jaundice since day 2 until now. Poor him..Tomorrow, he needs to go for another blood test check up...to see whether his jaundice is increasing or getting less. Last check-up, which was on yesterday (Thursday), the level was at 173, which had increased from the previous level, 148. 250 and above, the baby will be warded. Fari had once warded on last week, for one night only, when the level reached 267. Only God knows how I felt during that time. I was so worried and the only thing that I could do was crying and praying.Ya Allah, semoga anakku cepat pulih dari jaundice.

I call him Fari. The name was chosen by me since the papa did not really mind for any names. He was born in Shah Alam, on Thursday, 30th September 2010, at 1.59 pm. Alhamdulillah, i managed to deliver him normally without too long pain. My hubby was always beside me during the labour process. And even funnier, he was the one who 'push push push' , louder than me! haha...i love u papa!

I was at my MIL's house for one week after I gave birth. My mom had came all the way from Kuantan to accompany me for almost 2 weeks. Mommy, thank u so much! I love u sooo much! My MIL also was very nice towards me and my her first grandson...thank u Mak..she was crying all the way when i wanted to go back to Kuantan. She loves her grandson so much, I know.

Now, I am at my heaven, Kuantan. Menjalani pantang larang berpantang. I can't wait to end this confinement period successfully. Due to his jaundice, Fari loves to sleep...it's very hard to see him with eyes open. I really hope when he's getting better, he will be more active and healthy. At the moment, i just breastfeed him without giving him any formula milk, yet. Because according to most people, the best cure for jaundice is mom's milk. It's ok...i sacrifice my beauty sleep at the moment till u recover, my Fari. Anything for u!

OMG! I am a mother! And I still can't believe it!